1. citrus, a winter staple round here, in my favorite new pehr basket
2. bundled up for a walk (that lasted two minutes before he cried and wanted to come home)
3. out for my mom’s birthday lunch + my most flattering angle
4. bloom2bloom blooms! use hunt20 for your own discount! v-day comin’ up!
in college, i didn’t really love psychology, and i definitely did not like philosophy and yet here i am, in an almost-constant state of reflection which, to me, seems like something someone would do if he (or she) enjoyed those subjects–or at least psychology? yes? no? does that make any sense? we had dinner with old friends of ours the other night. i mean, i haven’t seen them since i was in 4th grade. so, i was telling steve, “yeah, i haven’t seen them since i was 11, so like 15 years.” and he was like… “more like 20 years.” what! offended! but yet totally true. and then i was having lunch with my sister and somehow it came up that steve and i have been together for 10 years and she was shocked, baffled, incredulous. and the thing is so am i! these are my days, my life, i’m actually living it, and yet i am routinely struck by how anything in my life can be “20 years ago” without referencing me as nothing more than a mere newborn. steve and i? together for 10 years? um, pretty sure i was in like 2nd grade 10 years ago. (there’s a cradle-robbing joke here somewhere…)
do you get what i’m saying though? do you also feel this? sometimes i look around and think what is happening?! and you may find yourself in a beautiful house, with a beautiful
wife and you may ask yourself well… how did i get here? nailed it, talking heads!
wife and you may ask yourself well… how did i get here? nailed it, talking heads!
RIGHT?!
(this is not a mid-life crisis, i’m pretty sure. just musings on life. thanks for bearing with me.)
Kimberly LaCroix says
Yes. Exactly. Last night I came out of the bathroom, looked at Jake and exclaimed, "how do we have a kid? And how are we 7 months pregnant with ANOTHER kid? How did we get here!?!" He made a sly remark about the birds and the bees but THIS (what you're writing about here) was more my line of questioning. I feel like it was just a year or two ago that we were in Stine's British Lit class together Bridget! But that was probably a full decade by now too. Sheesh.
bridget says
I'm glad I'm not alone here! I think each year goes faster than the last!!! (And hope you're feeling well in this pregnancy!!)
Allison Beato says
Oh Bridget, thank goodness I am not the only one who feels this way! Yes, yes, I often can't believe that so much time has passed and that I actually got married, bought a house and now have two children. I don't know where the time has gone. Just yesterday my husband and I were looking at our first child's baby book. There was a page that says "How we met" and I had pasted a picture of my husband and me from our sophomore year in high school. (In South Jersey by the way, wahoo!) I said, "Boy, can you believe this was fourteen years ago?" And then my husband reminded me that we were sophomores in COLLEGE in 2002 but actually sophomores in high school in 1998. Face smack. I couldn't believe I actually said it out loud but even more so, couldn't believe that much time had passed.
Alex Byer says
i feel this all the time. apparently my 10-year high school reunion is coming up, which i know makes me seem younger in this respect but MY GOD i literally JUST WENT to college! how could my reunion be here already?! time is a strange, strange thing, isn't it?
Abby Burtness says
What is the silver thing with the wood stand on your counter in the first picture? I love kitchen gadgets :)!
bridget says
it's a berkey water filter!!
Licia says
I received some half hearted furious mails from my brothers and sisters when I posted a picture celebrating 10 years of marriage: how dare you, you're the baby, the chick, you can't be married for ten years, you can't be 30 years…
I used to feel like that all the time while watching the kids grow; the one I was reading bed time stories is now starting to get his drivers licences (how?) but just until recent times I always managed to (kind of) seperate that from me. They get older, aren't babys/toddlers/kids/teenager anymore, which is hard on its very own. But then realizing that for me time isn't standing still too, yeah whole new level of "How?!"
Jennifer says
YES! Exactly! I was just having a conversation with a good friend about his Peter Pan syndrome; he was remarking that he wants to always BE young. After a bit, I said, "Well, what is it when you don't necessarily want to be young – it's neither here nor there to you – but you always FEEL like you are younger than you really are?" I don't know that there's a name for that, but I'd wager most of us feel that way. I often feel like I'm playing dress-up or something when I drop my son off at kindergarten and stand with the other parents, chatting, as the sweet little people are lining up and doing their thing before school. Like – they'll totally rat me out as not being a parent. Me, a parent?! Didn't I just go to college last year? (Jennifer, reality check: you're 44 years old yo.)
I also frequently catch myself when I'm referring to "my son" and feel like I'm lying – how am I a MOTHER? WHAT?!? It can't be true. Part of that is probably years of infertility, but I think a bigger part of it is just being surprised at how time passes and who we grow into, and our conceptions as children of what comprises an adult.
Dude, and LOVED LOVED LOVED the Talking Heads reference. It both took me by surprise and was totally fitting here. Fist. Bump.
Cynthia says
Bridget I hope you've had this same convo with your mom. Surprise, surprise, I bet she feels the same and maybe even occasionally catches a glimpse of herself in a random store window and wonders who is THAT (old) lady? In our heart and spirit we all remain a vibrant, less-encumbered age. And that is why it is so special to have friends from various generations…we have more in common than outward appearances might suggest!
Veronica says
I totally get it! I am turning 30 this year which I don't have any weird feelings about but it does mean that I've been doing things for a long time. I was filling out a form this morning that asked how long I've been drinking coffee. I put 13 years, how is that possible?!
Knead To Feed says
Bridget- Fear not, I think we are all guilty of feeling a little bit overwhelmed at how time passes so fast. Thank you for your honesty. Sometimes I seriously think that I am the only person who thinks I was 16 years old yesterday. I still fantasize about closing my eyes and being back in my parents house, with all of my siblings, playing in the basement, or in our rooms…for just one more average day at home, something about those memories being so far away is just unnerving sometimes.
Jessica says
Sometimes my old college roommates and I talk about how long we've been friends…followed by sheer incredulity. HOW is that possible! Surely we're just bad at math 😉
Of course, my husband and I can never remember the year that we met…I can't decide if that's good or bad 🙂
bridget says
YES! same here! some of my best friends have been my friends for… 20 years?! WHAT?
Georgia says
Every. Damn. Day. I remember being a high school senior and thinking, 'well art's clearly not working out for me. I guess I'll go to med school..'
and now I'm a doctor. I've been a doctor for 6 months. That's just weird….!!! I imagine it only gets weirder as your kiddos grow and get older!
Julie Vidani says
it never stops, that feeling. I just had a beautiful baby boy and he will soon turn 30 freaking years old! I remember my own mom saying "how can I have a 30 year old" and I thought, well, because you're old! now, I totally feel 30 myself and yet……….
allyson says
I have so many questions about the water filter! Would you consider a post on it? Pretty please!!!!!
And I was just tying to figure out how many years I've been married because I was certain that 13 years was an impossibility.
San says
Yes, yes. I also feel this. Time perception is the weirdest thing, FOR SURE!
Oh, and I see you have a Berkey! We got one a few weeks ago. LOVE IT. Where did you get the wooden stand for it??
bridget says
amazon! look up plant stands.
San says
Awesome, thanks!
Lauren Socha says
I get those deep thoughts a lot too. Have you taken the Meyers briggs personality type test? I would be interested to know which type you are! You can take the test here if you wanted to:
http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/jtypes2.asp
Knowing my type and how I cognitively function has really taught me a lot about myself and helped me to understand my flaws and anxiety better.
bridget says
a long time ago, but i think my results would be different now!
anna says
OH MY GOSH!!!! YOU HAVE THE WATER THINGY. That warranted all caps for sure. So my husband has been wanting one and I'm all daaaaang it's expensive and yet…I think we are going to go for it. Do you like it? Have you had to clean the filters yet? Did you get the regular sized one or the fatty one? So many questions…
anna says
So apparently he wants the aqua rain one. whatever. same diff. 😉 I'm guessing it's the exact same concept though.
San says
We love our Berkey! We only had it for a month but feel it was one of the best investments! The filters will last a long while and the water tastes amazing. Definitely puts some control in your your own hands. 🙂 if you think about it, bottled water or other (less complex) filters will cost you more over the long run!
bridget says
we do like it! though we also have the fluoride filters and they've been a little touchy (requiring repriming b/c they were so slow to filter). but the customer service is great!