{sweater: (old) calypso st. barth}
{top: (old) zara}
{maternity pants: c/o emoi emoi}
{shoes: c/o shoemint}
{hat: forever 21}
{scarf: asos}
Pilot Me by Josh Garrels on Grooveshark
Last weekend I went away for a night with three of my dearest girlfriends. A little 30th birthday celebration, a little before-baby-comes getaway, but mostly girlfriends just wanting to get together, with or without an excuse. My friend Jenny is renting a place on the ocean in Maine right now, so it didn’t take much cajoling to get us there.
We talked about everything under the sun, from husbands and marriage to careers and our futures. It’s really nice to have girlfriends that you feel comfortable being transparent with. I am already prone to transparency, for better or for worse (sometimes for worse, I’m sure), but they’re definitely a safe place to be so. Sunday morning, we were sitting around in our pajamas by the fire and my friend Caroline asked me something along the lines of how I’m feeling as I near giving birth again, having another baby.
I answered whatever came to mind at the time. Something not-so-deep like, “I can’t wait for the scrunchy newborn face, the sweet smell, I worry about the sleep loss.” It wasn’t earth-shattering by any means. But as I was getting ready to go, I thought more about the question and more about turning 30, and more about who I am now versus who I was at 21 when I started dating Steve.
I came back out and said, “I’m more keenly aware of how lucky I am.” I’m not trying to brag because Lord knows I’m certainly not mature in a thousand other ways and I can complain and be a total and complete wretch sometimes, but I do think that as I enter my 30s, I have more perspective that I simply did not have through my 20s. Whether it’s life or age or a mixture of both, it is such a welcome lesson to have under my belt. That even on my shittiest days it’s somewhere tucked in there and I can usually bring it to the forefront, “Bridget, you really are so lucky.” It’s a game-changer.
Nice post. There's something so lovely about the perspective you get as you get older. I turned 40 this year, and it has been more of a transition than perhaps I expected, but I'm happier and more mindful than ever about everything I have in my life. Good luck with baby #2!
It really is a game changer. I got married when I was 20 and now I'm 31 and I'm a completely different person in some ways, and very much the same in others. But the ways I'm different affects not just me anymore and that's huge. But I know who I am now (as much as I can at this age) and I feel really grateful for that because looking back at when I was 20, I HAD NO IDEA.
Happy Birthday!
YES.
You really are very lucky. 🙂
You got your scarf! I truly hope my perspective feels as complete as yours at 30. Being 25 and engaged is the path I'm on right now. So much fun, very exciting and lots of looking towards the future. I suppose slowing down is worth while. I can't wait to be with my three closest friends.
That sounds like an amazing way to turn 30.
I always got the feeling that you are totally aware of it, without bragging or painting life as if it is always rainbows, flowers and unicorns, but for me you have such a positive, well-adjusted aura – even when you share some of your doubst and worries here. Apart from your writing ;), your taste in music and your sense of humor, it's another side of yours, I really like (and most of times truly admire)
Licia, you're my favorite.
What an amazing thing to recognize! You are so, so blessed my friend!
So excited for you 🙂
You are hands down the cutest, most stylish pregnant woman, ever! I'm personally looking forward to my 30s, I think it will be the best years yet 🙂
xx
Jenny // Mish Mosh Makeup
Thanks Jenny! Making me feel better on this tired Friday morning.
These are the best words, and that picture with your sweater blowing out behind you, I mean. Lovely.
Josh Garrels! Have you seen The Sea In Between documentary? So so good.
A beautiful insight. He is going to be one lucky little baby 🙂
Lucky indeed!! For your beautiful fam, handsome hubs (can I say that?;), that sweet bump, and those awesome girl friends. Happy birthday gorgeous mama. Cheers to your best year yet!!! xo
Happy 30th! Beautiful way to start your year—with a newborn. Birthing blessings to you. Josh Garrels is the soundtrack of our lively household. Love ALL his music. If you haven't yet, a must watch is "The Sea Inbetween" (Steve too!) His concerts are pretty swell too. My dream is to get him to sing in our little city.
I haven't watched it! But I will, thank you! (Listening to Million Miles right now… gosh I love that man.)
Happy Birthday! I totally get where you are coming from. I catch myself thinking about how lucky I am almost daily. I'm 31 weeks pregnant with my first and am hitting the big 30 in a few months. I wish someone had warned me about how hard your 20s can be! I feel much more sane now leaving them behind then I did throughout them!
that is really beautiful, bridget! so true.
What a fun thing to go do for your bday! Happy birthday btw! Sounds like it was a good one, and only great things lay in store for you this next year!
Happy belated birthday! I think you are due around my birthday. Yea December babies 🙂